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TWPT:
If someone were to ask you what it is that you believe, spiritually
speaking, and what path it is that you follow, how would you answer them?
YG:
This is a far more complex question than it seems at first. For me,
spirituality is the core issue; what path I follow refers to how I
express my spirituality. So I suppose I should address the former first.
For me, my spirituality is not so much of a
belief, as a way of perceiving the universe, of living my life. At
the core of the universe, I see unlimited energy, but I would never
place human attributes or gender upon that energy. I do not refer to
it as "god" or as "goddess"...simply as that
which makes up everything in existence. I usually call it, simply,
"the universe"...or "the One". The core of the
universe is both everything and nothing. I see a web extending from
that core (which is everywhere) to link all that has ever been and
will ever be.
After the One, I view existence in a series of
paradoxes/complements/contradictions. Much in a Taoist tradition, I
see rising out of that universal energy, opposites...male/female,
yang/yin, light/shadow, active/receptive. These diametrical energies
struggle and do battle, even as they are necessary for one another's
existence. I view them as both antagonistic to the other, and yet as
attracted to the other. Magnets, in a sense--repel/attract.
Creation is born out of these energies and their
battle. Life emerges out of their action and reaction. They are the Mother/Father
energies all godforms eventually emerge from. They are fire and
water, desert and forest, destruction and creation. Here we find the
great polarity of Shiva and Shakti, dancing through the universe,
creating and destroying through their passion and will. Chaos is born
within their wake, and so life emerges and mutates and returns to the
slime to be born again.
When we bring this down to human terms, to our
mortal eyes, I view our existence as being both within and without
this cycle. We are truly starstuff, but we are also temporal. I
believe that we have taken human form to learn lessons for our souls,
but after a cycle of lives, we move on to other realms. What other
realms? I don't know.
In terms of evolution & planetary phenomena,
I am a strong proponent of scientific thought and analysis, but I
also choose the path that all we know is but a single grain in the
desert, so our logical and analytical perceptions are blinded by our
inability to comprehend the magnitude of the universe. I accept
evolution as fact, even as I accept magick that changes our reality
as fact. I do not see a great conflict here, unless one chooses to
create one.
As far as the Gods go, yes, I believe in them.
Not as infinite, omnipotent, omniscient beings--never. I would never
assign a *conscious* entity such power in my spirituality. I do,
however, believe that the Gods are avatars, so to speak, of the
energies which they represent. I believe Ares is a being of war, (we
assigned him his name, but he existed before us as an offshoot of the
fiery/aggressive force in the universe). So too, I see my own
Goddess, Mielikki, as an avatar of the Hunt, she embodies the spirit
of the chase and the moon--she existed long before we gave her a
name. I do believe that the Gods interact with us on a human scale,
but they are not our saviors, they are not our benefactors unless
they choose to be.
As far as how I integrate my spirituality into my
life re: pathworking...I am a pledged Priestess, by life, soul and
blood, to Mielikki and Tapio, Finnish forest deities. I am, in
essence, pledged to the spirit of the Hunt, to the spirit of the
Wood, to the spirit of Fey. I follow their bidding, I listen and they
guide my actions and life. When I go astray, I find myself out of
connection, out of the flow of the Universe and that is when things
tend to go wrong.
However, I do not follow a "Finnish"
path. I do not believe we can reconstruct our past religions, but
only reinvent them, re-create them anew. There are far too many
pieces missing and we live in a far different world than the ones our
ancestors inhabited. And so, we construct our spiritual paths new and fresh.
I am a strong advocate, in all my books and my
personal life, of finding what works for you on a personal level and
following. It creates an eclectic tradition, to say the least, but
the more personal the path, the more meaningful it will be to our
individual lives. My personal tradition, I call DarkMoon Rising, and
it combines my work with Mielikki & Tapio, my approach to magick
(which is not dependent upon these particular deities), my work with
Pele, and my Irish and Cherokee ancestry. I do not randomly blend
traditions, but only that which seems to work together as a whole
without disrupting the other parts of my path.
TWPT:
Could you explain your ideas on who and what are the God and the
Goddess, Lord and Lady? Are they beings that we can know or are they
very aloof and unreachable by human standards except in the most
general of ways? Or are they simply energies without a tangible
personality at all?
YG: I
believe the Gods exist, they are real, and it's high time that we who
are the magick workers accepted this. Mysticism and magick are alive
and well, don't let your fear of being labeled as a nut case dissuade
you from actively reaching out to the true powers and natures of the Divine.
With modern psychology and our modern take on
mythology, there is the tendency for people to want to categorize
Paganism and Witchcraft as religions of the mind. But we are grounded
in the Earth. She exists, the Horned God exists, and together They
mate and from Their loins, life springs forth. The fact that we can
explain this process in a scientific way in no manner negates, nor
conflicts with, the magickal side of things.
As far as I see it, the main problem with looking
upon the Gods as archetypes comes with the lack of respect and the
casual attitude adopted in circles and rituals. "Oh, since
they're archetypes, let's invoke Freya and Loki and the Corn Maiden
and Ares in the same circle."
Well, let me guarantee you, keep doing that and
you are going to rip your life apart. Freya, in a thousands-year old
tradition, hates Loki. The Corn Mother has nothing to do with the
others, and Ares is a warmonger.
What do you expect is going to happen when you
invoke such a blend into your ritual and magick? You must think
before you randomly start invoking the Gods.
Please pay attention to history and tradition.
The Gods do interact on our level, when we invite
them in and at times, when we don't. I am a Priestess of Mielikki and
Tapio, I receive guidance from them, I listen, ask questions and
generally find that when I pay attention to what they say, my life
goes much smoother. Are they a part of me?
Yes in the sense that I belong to them, I have
given myself to them. They, for me, exist above all else and have
precedence in my life, even over my life. I bound myself with an oath
to serve them. I consider this oath sacred and above every other oath
I have ever made.
When we take oaths, when we pledge or dedicate
ourselves to serving the gods, the Goddess, the Earth, we forge a
sacred connection and I think it's time that we started taking our
vows seriously. I seldom make promises, because I believe in keeping
those I make.
Remember, you are not here to negate or control
Nature, the Gods, and the powers around us. You're here to discover
your niche within the Earth Mother's home, and if you're Pagan,
you're here as a steward and celebrant of Her powers, Her strength,
and Her awesome and sometimes destructive, beauty.
TWPT:
Is it getting more difficult to explain to other's what you believe
in these days of eclectic paths that draw from everywhere? Should we
still be concerned about the labels that once were used to describe
to other groups what it is that we stand for?
YG: Well,
as you can see by my answer above, I think it takes a bit longer
time, but I also think that we are forced to truly examine our
beliefs more rather than being able to just spout off "I'm a
(fill-in-the-blank)." Now, I think that as more and more
eclecticism evolves, the less antipathy we will encounter. I am a
Witch...I am Pagan but I am *not* Wiccan, I do not follow all of the
Wiccan redes, etc. I like the freedom that gives me, and the
responsibility it also brings. When you have A-Group and B-Group and
E-Group and L-Group, it's much easier to follow pack mentality when
you come across something different than you are used to. I'm rather
glad to see some break-down in the hierarchical structure of
religion. At the same time, I see the value in retaining cultural and
religious traditions....it's a hard call. I think we have to walk a
fine line.
TWPT:
For those standing at a crossroads in their lives considering this
path what advice would you offer them?
YG:
First, be sure that you are willing to assume responsibility for your
life. I detest the tendency to assign blame for actions to
deities/anti-deities and I firmly believe that what we do in life, we
accept the consequences for. In my personal world view, you don't get
your *sins* wiped clean with an "I'm sorry"...you pay for
what you do. So there is that thought.
I also find that this path requires thought and
that you must be willing to put time in thinking, philosophizing,
figuring out your ethics and values, analyzing why you believe what
you do, studying the history that we do know (Pagans were notoriously
bloodthirsty & often JUST as bad as the Inquisition turned out to
be--humans will be humans no matter what religion they are).
Third, ours is an experiential religion...you
think, then you experience. You must act on what you believe. If you
choose to be a Witch, you have to practice magick. If you choose to
worship Nature, you should find a way to show your reverence in both
spirit and in action. If you truly revel in the body and find no
shame in your corporeal being, then you should learn to enjoy
yourself on a physical level.
You must also be willing to shoulder negative
reactions, to not give into martyr syndrome (ohhhh, I'm soooo
persecuted because I'm Pagan), to stand up and be different than the
majority and be happy with yourself as such. You must also, in my
opinion, learn tolerance. I have friends from all faiths, I may not
approve of some of their beliefs, or I may find them odd or quirky,
but I do not let that interfere with our friendships as long as their
actions do not go against what I can accept into my life. For
example, I would not accept a child molester as a friend. Nor would I
accept someone spouting racial hatred. Those actions/beliefs are
anathema to me, and I will not condone it by my silence or my acceptance.
TWPT:
Many of us have read your Midsummer ritual here on TWPT and enjoyed
it very much, tell me about a ritual that was very meaningful to you,
what made it meaningful and what it is that one should achieve when
they construct and perform a ritual.
YG: Oh,
there have been so many....but truly, for me, more than any ritual,
my time spent out in nature, out in the elements, has been the most
intense, the most meaningful. Ritual, in my opinion, is more than a
set play, I see ritual as interacting with the forces around us in a
deliberate manner.
One of the most meaningful times I've recounted
in several of my books, in one manner or another--once as a
meditation (in Tarot Journeys) and another time as a brief mention.
My girlfriend at the time and I were running intense magick, we would
get up, go to work, get off work, grab some traveling food, toss it
in the back of the car and take off for the woods.
Night after night we did this, and we would creep
through the woods, communing with the forest until early light, then
back home for a couple hours of sleep before we started the cycle again.
Now, one night, the night after Beltane, 1991, I
believe, we headed out for a state park near here. It's a lovely
place, lots of magickal energy, beautiful. It was unusually warm that
year and we parked the car at the top of the hill (you couldn't drive
down to the water's edge after dark) and sneaked in past the locked
gate. The hill was steep, we crept down, and then out on the
boardwalk that overlooks the bay. The stars were shining so bright
and reflected in the water so that it was a dazzling display.
There are no true words for the link that forms
when you connect your energy with that of the elements around you,
that's why our religion is so experiential and difficult to convey to others.
After we stood there, just "being" for
awhile, we began our journey along the trail that leads to a sand
beach a ways along the bay. It was so dark we could scarce see our
hands in front of our faces, and we held hands as we walked along,
step by step, feeling out the energy rather than the path itself--it
would have been easy to trip and go tumbling down the small ravine to
one side, but by blending our essence with that of the path, the
forest around us, we navigated without a problem.
At one point, we looked to the hillside to our
left, and two glowing red eyes were staring at us out of the hill. It
was the Hunter himself and within seconds, we were down on our knees,
just staring at the eyes in rapture and fear and awe. They faded
after a few moments, and we continued our journey, feeling propelled
forward with a purpose that we did not understand but must obey.
Now, the path is not that long, but that night it
seemed to stretch forever.
We made it down to the bay again, and found that
the phosphorescence had come in on the tide. Every step we took
kicked up sparks of light, and when we waded into the bay, we were
covered with the shimmering flecks. We danced in the stars that
night, unable to speak--we were actually reduced to tears and
laughter for our communication, moving beyond words because words
were too confining and limiting for the experience.
On the way back, we were exhausted, wondering how
we would climb the steep road to the car...and then a sweep of energy
came behind us and we felt the Hunter again, racing towards us and we
caught up the energy and actually ran up the road (I couldn't do it
today, I'll tell you that). At the top of the hill, we turned
around....looking back down the road. And there he was....horned and
rising up through the forest. We both spoke at once, the "Do you
see what I see?" that one thinks only happens in the movies.
And we started describing him, and matched point
for point. And then, as quickly as the image appeared, he
faded....and the night marked a turning point for both of us.
So that, that sort of experience for me, is far
more profound than a ritual set in advance. Now, the Litha ritual, I
led a couple years ago, and it was wonderful and fun and
sparkling......but nothing I've ever "created" has marked
the impact that my spontaneous experiences with the Divine and spirit
have brought about.
My advice, when creating ritual: do not hedge in
your bets, make sure there's leeway for spontaneity. Make sure that
you do not cut off the energy with the desire to stick to the script.
If you use a script, MEMORIZE it...nothing detracts from energy more
than fumbling with a sheath of papers.
As to what one should achieve, or what goals one
should work towards: that all depends upon what you wish to focus. A
Samhain ritual will have a different goal than one for Beltane. A
ritual to cut cords with the dead will have a far different energy
than one which welcomes in a marriage. There is no set pattern. You
find what works for you and then refine it, hone it. You alter as is
necessary. There are no rights and wrongs in the pathworking we do,
only that which advances our spirit or which detracts from it and in
every case, the individual will determine which polarity to which an
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